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Post by MacReadyOrNot on Feb 23, 2020 1:39:36 GMT -5
Spill your guts out here about anything you want to complain or grieve about. I'll start...
I have a key to my girlfriend's place. It's been working out well for us for the most part. Last night, though, after a very long day for me, I decided it was okay to spend the night there. However, since she was closing at her job she wasn't expecting me. Needless to say, she was very annoyed that I was there. Wanted to unwind without me there. I get it, but she could have expressed her feelings better than she did to me. She could have talked to me about it rather than just being stand-offish. So, today, I decided to return the favor.
Childish? A bit.
From now on I'm just going to text her when she texts me. Not before. I'm going to let her say it's okay for me to stay over, even though it hasn't been a problem before. I'm just going to let her take the reigns.
I realize it's her apartment, but I do a lot for her, I feel. I'm not some bum squatting there. I take out the trash. Clean up the dishes. I even scoop up the mess her cat makes without being prompted to.
One of the biggest things that hurts me though is the fact she still hasn't listen to one single song I wrote for her that I gave her for Christmas last year. I wrote and sang 30 songs for her and not one of them has been heard by her.
I hate love sometimes. Breaks my heart. She is and will always be the love of my life. For me. Just stings from time to time. I want to marry her, but it's too early, I know. Anyway...
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Post by MacReadyOrNot on Feb 23, 2020 1:40:14 GMT -5
I'm a bit drunk, after having watched the Wilder/Fury boxing match
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Post by MacReadyOrNot on Feb 23, 2020 9:12:02 GMT -5
I'm better today. Still a bit hurt, but I understand her annoyance much better. Still not sure if I should wait to text her once she texts me or I should just text her now. Decisions, decisions.
First time dating is always fun.
Almost one year together.
I do love her.
Sorry for getting mushy.
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Post by endo on Feb 23, 2020 18:20:57 GMT -5
Man, it's been so long since I was dating, I wouldn't know what to do in your situation. I've been married almost 20 years and still don't have my wife figured out. Maybe she was just having a bad day and wasn't in a great mood...good luck.
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Post by MacReadyOrNot on Feb 24, 2020 8:23:34 GMT -5
Thanks. Yeah, we're better now. I just overanalyze and I worry way too much. Blow things out of proportion in my own head. That sort of thing. I'm lucky she's in my life and still wants to be in my life. I just worry a lot because time on Earth isn't as long as we think it is, and who knows what lies beyond once it's been decided we're done here.
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Post by MacReadyOrNot on Mar 13, 2020 14:37:53 GMT -5
I've said it before on here, but I'll say it again. I hope all of you are doing well and remaining safe. Not fun times, that's for sure. All my work events that I had lined up for this March have been cancelled, so, it'll be fun looking for loose change in the couch until April. Ba dum bum. Hopefully the shows I bought tickets to this month will give me a refund rather than being able to reschedule so I can stay better afloat. Could be worse, like for some others unfortunately. Can't lose hope though. I do get a bit morose sometimes because of all of this. Overwhelmed. Zoned out. Downtrodden. Yadda, yadda, yadda. Trying to keep moving. To keep swimming. If not for me then for my family. My friends. My girfriend, the love of my life.
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Post by endo on Mar 13, 2020 15:38:47 GMT -5
I hope you and yours are doing OK through all of this as well MacReadyOrNot, and the same goes for everyone else. It is a bit of a bummer with all the closings, people who working from home is not an option for losing money, etc. I guess the thinking is better safe than sorry, and they'd rather deal with closings and in some cases business losing money than the alternative. I hope you can get refunds for tickets you've already bought, in circumstances like this I would think they would gladly give you a refund, but who knows? Is all of this an overreaction? Maybe. But, again I do see where the businesses, movie theaters, schools, libraries etc., are coming from. Lets just all be smart, stay calm, follow the CDC's advice and weather the storm. And, if you have elderly family members or friends, take care of them. They're the ones at the most risk, them and the already ill. It'll run it's course soon enough, then something new will come along to take it's place. That's life. Stay safe!
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Post by ✶April✶ on Mar 19, 2020 0:49:49 GMT -5
Well, I have a complaint today, starting with the damn hoarders who robbed the rest of us out of being able to buy essential items that we actually need. I went to the store this morning, around 6:30am, in search of bread and eggs. The only bread that was in abundance was white... I haaaaate white bread. I haven't had that since I was a kid and couldn't care less about quality. I was forced to buy it anyway since I really didn't want to spend my day driving to different grocery stores. No eggs whatsoever either. I didn't even check the toilet paper aisle because I already knew that would be empty as well. We are under a shelter-in-place also, it was day 2. I lost my steady income on Monday because of it, and I'm not allowed to work from home because I'm still a temp and they won't allow access. I tried to file a claim for Unemployment Insurance (for reduced work hours) today and got all the way through to the end when their website craps out on me. I couldn't even get back in to check if anything had saved or not. Ugh. Other than that, I'm not stressed about COVID-19. Just extremely frustrated. We are okay-ish for now on TP, but sooner or later, we're going to need more... ___________________________________________ On a different note, MacReadyOrNot , I'm sorry to hear about your problems you were having at the beginning of this post. The song issue hits a little close to home for me, in a different way, but I can understand how it makes you feel. I once had a guy write a song for me and I loved it, was one of the most thoughtful things anyone had ever done for me, to this day, and even when I read the lyrics all these years later, it still brings tears to my eyes because of the sentimental meaning behind it. (I don't have access to the actual song anymore but I can still hear him singing it.) I'm just curious, is there a reason she hasn't even bothered to listen to any of them for you?
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Post by NDX on Mar 19, 2020 5:17:06 GMT -5
At least your store had white bread. Mine had none whatsoever. And I don't drive so I don't have the luxury of shopping around (not that it would help, I think). I have 4 slices of bread left. I was hoping to get some this morning but it's raining very hard and I have no adequate umbrella, so I have to try tomorrow now instead.
Oy. I just want a few cold cut sammiches. Is that too much to ask?
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Post by MacReadyOrNot on Mar 19, 2020 22:57:51 GMT -5
I'm just curious, is there a reason she hasn't even bothered to listen to any of them for you? She has listened to some of them since then, but finds it kind of difficult to express herself a lot of the times because of her last relationship some time back. We're good right now, just continuing to build a relationship. If we meant nothing to each other we wouldn't get hurt at all, so, take the good with the bad. She's worth everything. Thanks for the concern.
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Post by MacReadyOrNot on May 18, 2020 7:41:05 GMT -5
I just had one of the scariest nights of my life last night.
Okay. So, a couple days ago my girlfriend started to have a cough. Pretty normal, considering she's asthmatic . . . and she smokes (my grandfather was and did too, for Lord knows why). However, this time her cough seemed different to her, and she had been experiencing a few other symptoms associated with COVID. So, she called off work, went to a test site, and came back home. Now, thankfully, the tests came back negative. I couldn't have been happier. Until last night. She had one of the worst coughing fits I've ever experienced with her. The only other time she scared me in my life like that was when she had the flu at the start of this year. She's calmed down since early this morning now. Sleeping. Not worrying. I hardly have though. I've been scared to death about her test results. Reading about false negatives and what not.
*heavy sigh*
I know I'm just blowing things out of proportion probably, but that doesn't make it feel any less real to me. My mind always goes to the worst case scenario. If I lost her though, I don't think I would want to go on living.
What a hell of a way to start off my birthday week.
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Post by endo on May 18, 2020 15:30:59 GMT -5
You can't be too careful, especially given what's going on. But, as my wife tells me when I worry about something bad happening that hasn't yet, "don't borrow trouble", lol. She came back negative, so I'd try to put at least that aspect of things out of your mind as much as possible.
As a former smoker, she should really quit. It's terrible for the body and I can only imagine how bad it is coupled with asthma. I'm sure you and many others have probably told her that already, and she has to want to quit. And, it's not easy, I know that firsthand. I used to work for a guy that smoked for 40 years or so and he would go into coughing fits right in the middle of talking to you that could last almost 5 minutes straight.
Anyway, I hope she feels better. And work on her to at least cut back on the smoking.
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Post by MacReadyOrNot on May 21, 2020 8:28:36 GMT -5
I feel very mixed right now. On the one hand, I received my unemployment, which I am so, so very thankful for. I definitely needed it. Helps my girlfriend and I out, for sure. On the other hand, however, this ish happened: Breach within Ohio Department of Job and Family Services inadvertently exposed private data
E-@#$%ing-gad!
I have no credit, so I can't monitor identity theft that way. All I have to hope for is that I don't one day see my bank account greatly depleted, or hear from debt collectors and so on.
This is such one big @#$%ing mess. Such bullish.
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Post by MacReadyOrNot on May 21, 2020 8:34:36 GMT -5
I guess identity theft is always a possibility, regardless of breaches. Especially in this day and age of having a constant online presence.
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Post by ✶April✶ on May 22, 2020 18:42:53 GMT -5
Aw, sorry to hear about all that. :/ Just make sure to keep checking your account every day and report ANYTHING that you did not approve... is all I can suggest. Sorry I'm not much more help than that. My complaint today.... when did a complete and TOTAL lack of communication become a requirement of companies nowadays?!? Like, seriously, I'm so fakking tired of it. The past 6 months, I've worked 3 assignments for 3 different companies and NOT A ONE OF THEM knew how to effectively communicate. Not in the slightest. It's so damn frustrating. I miss working for my dad.
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